A love story - Paradise Lost -- Chapter 2 - The End - Part 2

Just before I went out of my house, I went to grab my medication. I feel safer with them around knowing that I can depend on them for some comfort anytime. Why am I bringing more than enough pills for a whole day? I have no answer to this.

An old lady requested for my assistance to press the bus stopping bell. I helped her and smiled at her. I felt my heart aching when I smiled at her. I also have no answer to this.

While I was in deep thoughts in the train, I suddenly realise there's a monk standing next to me. I would like to borrow a phrase from Mr Razzle Dazzle: coincidence? I don't know what that means. Was the invisible man up in the sky trying to hint me? I totally have no clue.

I suddenly realise the place I am going to right now was the place I accompanied her to her facial session. Another coincidence? I still don't know what that means.

A love story - Paradise Lost -- Chapter 2 - The End - Part 1

I do know it's strange to place the ending of a story right in the first chapter.

Anyhow, I will be using myself as the character of the story as I find it easier to narrate the story in a first person view. Do not worry, I am not the person as described in this story. Hope you will bear that with me. This story happens in real-time and will be published real-time. Keep checking us up for live updates!

Today, I received a SMS which is supposed to be saddening. Surprisingly, I did not feel sad. A wave of calmness swept me off my feet. My vision started to be glared by bright light from unknown sources. My field of vision turned hazy and blurrish. What is happening? I thought to myself. Being extremely drowsy and dizzy, I slowly got off my bed dizzily.

My sumo goldfish caught my sight. I realised I am fighting this all alone now. My battlefield mates, my precious sumo goldfish left me for her favourite food, my precious plants left me for the warm-giving sunlight. I am left all alone in this darkness, feeling cold, feeling helpless...

My best friend greeted me. I felt hope for a second. The life-giving hope disappeared into the thin air before I can even grab hold of it. She asked if she could visit me. I rejected her flatly. For I know, I will only bring her unhappiness and she will have her tears rolling down her rosy cheeks when she see me. How can I bear to let her go through this torment when she's not supposed to get involved in it. It's my final wish to see a happy person to turn into a sorrow zombie because of me.

I seek help from GODs of all kinds. "The invisible man up there high in the sky, tell me what am I suppose to do?" I screamed in my mind. There was no reply. It was kinda expected.

I am now the walking zombie of this cruel world. Death is always around the corner, trying to grab my feet when I lose my focus. How can I leave this cruel world? I can't bear to leave this cruel world with a beautiful side. All I am seeing right now is the cruel side. I can't see anything beautiful at all. I am losing hope rapidly.

I decided to attempt to fill my mind with work for now. I know chances of this working is amazingly low. I have to try at least, I said to myself. I am a lone soldier in this battlefield. I have to fight till my very last breath. I have to finish this battle to see the beautiful side of the world. All I see was a never-ending horizon encompassed with greyness. It's soundless, it's cold and it's smell full of rusting iron, the same scent of fresh blood.